I have made an appointment to see my counsellor again today... I think it's time I go back. I'm not doing so great.
We went to visit Owen yesterday and I broke down. I've asked him if he can please watch over this baby and make sure all will be ok. I'm so so scared something is going to happen. I have nightmares about it. I am trying to be positive and get thru this, but so far it's not really working.
I know it's probably a combination of the pregnancy hormones and getting closer and closer to Owen's first birthday.. But, I just need some help I think.
I am missing him terribly at the moment.
I just want everything to be ok. I want to be back to going thru a pregnancy without worry, like I have in the past..
Being pregnant after losing the girls was very difficult for me. There were so many fears and worries. I hope seeing your counselor helps to relieve some of your fears. xx
ReplyDeleteI hope the counsellor has some helpful strategies for you Mel. It is only natural to have these feelings. Good on you for getting some help. You are a great mummy and I am POSITIVE owen has his eye on this little one you are growing so beautifully
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